Don’t

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Time

Energy

Manpower

Emotions

Factors that are contributed to relationships, jobs, people and society itself.

Factors that aren’t given can potentially cause a downfall.

But what do you do when you’ve given all four of these aspects with nothing in return?

Detach.

Detach yourself from the un-reciprocal.

Tell yourself: I just don’t feel like it.

I don’t feel like giving my time to a person or a thing that doesn’t value it.

I don’t feel like giving my manpower to something that won’t encourage me to rest.

I don’t feel like exhausting my energy into a job, project, etc. that won’t give me the credit I feel I deserve.

And I don’t feel like expressing my emotions if they won’t be taken seriously.

I just don’t feel like it.

And don’t feel guilty about it.

It was surprising to me when I uttered those words to myself at a time where I was at my wits end. I was about to give one last ounce of all four aspects wrapped into one when that little voice in my head told me: Don’t do it. Save that little bit for yourself. The right person, place or thing will come along and add to it. But save that for you. You need it most. 

I don’t know how many times I ignored myself to the point where I was running on E. To the point where I felt guilty for even thinking: I don’t feel like it.

But I can’t do that anymore.

I have to learn to say, within reason, I don’t feel like it.

My sanity is too much to lose.

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