Factors that are contributed to relationships, jobs, people and society itself.
Factors that aren’t given can potentially cause a downfall.
But what do you do when you’ve given all four of these aspects with nothing in return?
Detach yourself from the un-reciprocal.
Tell yourself: I just don’t feel like it.
I don’t feel like giving my time to a person or a thing that doesn’t value it.
I don’t feel like giving my manpower to something that won’t encourage me to rest.
I don’t feel like exhausting my energy into a job, project, etc. that won’t give me the credit I feel I deserve.
And I don’t feel like expressing my emotions if they won’t be taken seriously.
I just don’t feel like it.
And don’t feel guilty about it.
It was surprising to me when I uttered those words to myself at a time where I was at my wits end. I was about to give one last ounce of all four aspects wrapped into one when that little voice in my head told me: Don’t do it. Save that little bit for yourself. The right person, place or thing will come along and add to it. But save that for you. You need it most.
I don’t know how many times I ignored myself to the point where I was running on E. To the point where I felt guilty for even thinking: I don’t feel like it.
But I can’t do that anymore.
I have to learn to say, within reason, I don’t feel like it.
My sanity is too much to lose.